Attended my grandfather's wake today.. i wasn't sad at all.. am i numb? or am i glad that he don't have to battle with all the illness that have been haunting him anymore.

The demise of my grandfather set me to thinking about about the demise of my(another) grandfather on national day last year... he was the closest to my heart.. because i have been spending 18 yrs and 11 months with him....i remembered it was the worst when i hrd that he was in a coma... and he will never wake up again...but i keep lying to myself that he would...he would... i cried in hospital...beside him... all the wonderful memories i had with him... his love for chocolates... for travel... and for all his children...i was just bu gan yuan that he left b4 i could even say goodbye... and just a few days b4..we were still celebrating my nephew's birthday...Things then began crashing down when the doctor told us to say goodbye to him... i din want him to go... he haven't attended my graduation...and he didn't give me a chance to bring him overseas... I loved him...i still cry thinking of him... i would be so envious when i see that others have their grandparents around...Ah gong i miss you...

On a lighter note... i remembered someone asked this qn abt burining paper money to people in the netherworld during econs lecture... and the lecturer jokingly said there will be hyper-inflation there...

Anyway...cherish your grandparents...and your loved ones...